i'm a dance floor tiger lady

i don't know where you stand when it comes to leslie hall, though i can't

imagine it would be anywhere other than with me as one of the most

ardent members of her fan club.

(who wouldn't appreciate a chubby white girl rapper who built her schtick

around a pair of gold spandex pants, right?)

while my favs include "this is how we go out" (@ 0:50  and 3:24) and 

"gold pants lullaby" (@ 0:44 and 1:35) my new fav and the one that has brought me much happiness on this incredibly sucky day is "tight pants/body rolls"

behold, the most incredible video on the internet...

@ 1:26 - my fav

are we there yet?

this summer has been a hard one.

acheiving a goal i was never convinced i actually would left me with emptiness rather than acomplishment.

in a world of anxiety.

i have the degree i always wanted but no job.

no money.

but most concerning, no purpose.

by the time i finish grad school (assuming i can - the thought of working with actual scientists leaves me almost paralyzed with fear. i keep imagining myself showing up to a high-tech NASA lab with my saftey scissors and lunchbox) and finally make it into the field, i'll be 35.  that's so ridiculous i can't help but laugh.  35 is the age when your eggs start to rot.  35 is the over-the-hill of twentysomethings.  it's another box older on all the forms in the world.  my mom says it's better to be 35 with your masters than 35 without it but i'd like to be 35 in someone else's life.  

(ok, not all the time, just when it looks easier.)

in my entire life, no matter what i do, i always feel one step off. maybe one day i'll get used to it?

i guess all i really want to know is... is the hard part of life over yet so i can move to the country, wear jeans and wellies everyday, grow veggies and start my own farm animal sanctuary?

 

#Haven'tMaturedAtAll

is it bad how bad is it that i wish i had a "Teen Mom" 

chat group with my friends?

seriously, could you love macy any more?

and is everyone else fast forwarding through that trashcan, amber's, scenes?

and i'm pulling so hard for catelynn and tyler but i'm losing faith that they'll be able to survive their situations.

i feel so sad for farrah and at the very same time, feeling an overwhelming need to slap her.  she isn't good for my buddhist kindness practice.

so, to sum it all up, yes i finally earned my bachelor's degree in 

biology and while i'm waiting to find out about grad school, i'm 

making very good use of my time.